bury me

my middle finger bone is too messed up to hold my wrist, and the twist is moving up. I'm leaving a strong splint on for the night, I don't want to wake up with a stiff elbow. Ive been staring at my hand for the last week, just balancing it for hours not sure what to do. Its amazing how destructive I've been with my body, I could of had a better 'line up today but I passed out last night from exhaustion. I let it ruin my days. waking up, work on my hand for 45 mins and then wait for the next day that was pretty much it. that and getting in pissin contests with doctors . But anyways in that time I thought about the future I thought about chasing  money and thats not the way I want to live because you cant buy happiness. Ive heard of successful people that live for money and by the time their 30 they don't know what to do with themselves. that said big money can aid the right people in this world. I thought about my family, and how I want them to be happy. And for the first time I seriously thought about having kids, thats probably something to do with my injury but one day little offsprings bringing joy, I dig it.