I dont hate anything

anything

lucky

hey, people not feeling well woosab wwooosab, Whats a guy got to do to fix his hands these days, So I had a dream a heavy set woman and an attractive woman were standing close I dont remember much, but I though I dont need to go for girls anymore but the girl asked me if I wanted her number. I paused and thought hey its just a dream ok, when I accepted; my hand spazzed out and woke me up lol, true story, Hope everyone had a nice weekend

hese

its gonna be while, people waiting should  not hold their breath. these next few days will determine alot. I'm bored

lol

 I completely understand the next day

super prize giveaway!!!

Well as you alll know the bears pllay the steelers tomorrow I think, so here it is a comfortable sleeping position designed for me, The prize is a mystery yes s mystery but I can tell you it involves red licorice, this is only a one time award winning prize giveaway , yogs influence encouraged. best of luck ready go

call me

mr destructo. my hands jacked ya, but theres a tiny pull in my elbow and its going to spread, sorry bod

I feel better a paragraph or two, I felt naked not empty, ill share with my future wife one day when im older

tired tonight

I have to knit a little but then im gonna lean back and get some shut eye, dream about a woman, with dazzling eyes, a beautiful nose, a perfect smile, tender shoulders. breathe in her soft hair over her neck grip her tender shoulders down to the small of her waist and sleep in my sleep

sleep

yo readers any tips for sleeping in a upright position? im gonna put pillows on pillows on pillows, did I mention my butts all mid to low mass ha

im sad

im wearing black hair tie around my wrist and im resisting the natural course of hardening. Readers should I take it off?

cool

going to one more orthopedic place, not expecting much, the drive wont be a walk in the park if you get my drift, I'm glad my elbow still bends when need be. so last night I had the tube on and a one of those televangelist was reading the Bible saying the stone that the builder refuses will be the head cornerstone. Thats a phrase from one of my favorite songs and I did not even know that it came from the bible.

whats up

with the super affiliate internet advertising thing I keep hearing about? Is it all hype? Is anyone actually doing it? The internet is a great place to make money but im skeptical

night beautiful world, i think I messed it up at the end and 2 more times after that lol, but feel good going into the night finally, my body will run its course and maybe I can work with it.

i took off the middle string and a  gonna have a heart

im alittle scared

I dont mean to reflect my angry feelings. it comes from fear and uncertainty. I did this to myself I know, ill pay for it, im sorry things turned out the way they did, Im not talking to anybody, you were thinking wrist, I thought shoulder and I couldnt keep up communication wise probably because im falling apart regardless though. It felt there were ways to help me and I was n't getting it. even now its a like bleeding into my forearm. I can think better now actually because my fear wasnt in my hand but in my chi and balance. people dont understand its power and it scared me having my organs constrict and my knees slide in their joints. its blocked in my elbow which is what I wanted. My hand bone didnt have to die but  I didnt know. No one believed me about this, even Dr Tan who helped me and I have great admiration for his skill did not believe me about my wrist bone. my hand bone will be breaking soon thanks for kickin it

I think ill put a band in the middle of my forearm

My hand bone is dwindling, not sure how to stop it. I would like to wait for the middle to heal before I goto doctors but its slipping down and my hand is shrinking skin is breaking, doesnt hurt  though and my elbows not moving

my lower fore arm hardened,           I havent moved chillin in about a 80 degree angle

I tell my sister that sometimes she has to repeat things because im slow. true story

as I sit here I wonder why, its cold, ill live on my own

oh come on

I got to ask

I dont mean to disrespect my readers, because they;ve been very kind to me. If you come and help me with my body, ill give you a tv books, a shot glass collection, a repairable laptop, some jewelery now. ill pay you back 5 fold the total cost of the trip. until I pay the money back, I will do whatever you ask kinda like a slave. please consider it, I also will be suing my first doctor for not seeing my tumor this next month. with that you can go on a vacation with your all your close friends.. thanks

update

throbbing pain on the right side of my wrist, I think its from my second roofing attempt, sleeping with my arm by my side shoulder up

should I try to go back for my elbow tomorrow? hmmmmmm?   hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm? hmmm
hm

this or that

im fucking toast, lol it started like this way back. Im tweeked in the head, ill admit it to my blog. I wish the doctors could help. I wish Jesus would heal me, I wish I was smarter and stronger.  its too much to ask just to be still, just lay down. These pity partys are taking to me like a tan. but is it not just? Im positive.  I walk out of the hospital feel he breeze against my skin. the sun warms my face I walk and feel myself with harmonious bliss. im very thankful for that moment more then most can have in years, I have the ear of a beautiful woman, figuratively. Im safe from war. Many friends, I think I have business savvy. my left arm is strong. I lay my tent for new Jerusalem, im respected among my neighbors although this illness has lowered my head a little. I can sing now. my dad waits for me to reveal to him how to live, to get my fathers life on tract is something this generation can do without a doubt in my mind and i am thankful for his distant yearning heart, my moms healthy enough. my sisters know what God can do in this world. and that gives me peace with my kin for life. My friends need me and I will answer, what joy I look forward to hanging out, playing and creating with loved ones. Not working so hard and feasting as kings do. hopefully enough to increase food for everyone I care for in some way or the other. Ive learned alot these days my life goals are totally up in the air, I know I want to serve not necessarily the army not that they would have me. but something deep enough to give it all. these seem kinda vague thats because it is, im not sure yet, A good woman would take it to the top. oh ill get her, and we will share and experience the world everyday. I will set stones in Christendom and other builders will help. the world will not be the same. I get to play with my cat for 10 or so years haha. when the day arises I will not be boastful or sneaky, but the words of my mouth and the actions of my hand will be honorable and true, it feels good to write this down. the world is mine, back lust, wrath, greed, you have been noted. and slough your toast with my broken arm. 

this is not helping, its cool though lots offun pictures and stuff

stuck on a wall

yep

herro as yall know im having trouble with my arm if you have any tips on how to sleep id review em duncashae

when I do yoga with focused chi I can move everything,I think that might be better if I do that a couple times a day unbound,  instead of waiting for my shoulder to be messed up too

kickin inside, im irradiated mofo, im counting the days till my crooked bones solidify and I can move again, I think my elbow is messing up my shoulder, it suuuucks, So things to do this week, im going maintain good posture, thats very important. put the money thoughts in motion, blog my crappy days(smile face) reconnect with folks, eat healthy, memorize scriptures, and move slowly, if you have any suggestions let a brother know. peace

wheres the one thing with the thing, where can I find it

I pity the fool

I could have been healed 5 times, its disheartening,. Again im unsure what to do and my elbow is somehow there the way its suppose to. I thought it would mishappen days ago. its on the verge now as I type, I think ill just do chi power, once the elbow is gone I can not chi fight, but the chi does nothing to the bones when going hard. maybe I should shape the metacarpel, my body will never recover all the way, ill be like a duck with a cut flap in his foot.I cant feel my elbow, the roof was such a good idea. this was difficult for me to understand, I should of said something because I understand the next day late. I had a dream in california. I walked into a small grocery store many pretty women were in there. Angel was working there and she spoke business to me. this other woman was there she was beautiful, she left with me and we laid together, I put my arm over her and felt peace. I think the point of the dream was I did not hear her voice. and now my shoulder is pulling. I wonder if I should pop my elbow to place so it cant spread. Is that familiar? either way im sad and broken, but Ive felt worse and this will pass

Ive got so much strength, been waiting for my missing piece for 2 days.

Do me another solid and let me know your not

bless me

a bargain of sort
beware of the traders teeth
membraned toxins play

achu

my arm is heavy
As darkness creeps deeper
now waiting comforts

harmony plays low
from the land of broken bones
onward pressing chi

theres much to feel
longing for someone too close
seems to handle itself in process

my bones ache for you
am I to touch myself Lord?
run to me please wo

Should I wait or should or do the best I can now? please readers let me know

baby pool

I want help if its there, someone to hold my hand, I cant stop fighting a slow decay, ill live today and tomorrow and the next.

hey you

my elbow is jacked di is worked causing pain in my face, im gonna lay my bones together with my cuz tomorrowwwww anyways dreamland awaits where I am overdue. good night

rantastic rough draft

to start Im irritated with the world with myself, with the internet. My elbow stiffening, and im broke. my question is why would girls put sexy pictures of themselves on the internet? to make money? to get men to like them then get money. to get women to like them. for the attention, when theres not alot going on I can see friends commenting on each others pictures about sexiness, maybe for a feeling of competition. it could build self esteem, to show off because there are many people that get to see then, maybe their lonely, void even. to attract admirers from across the country or right in the next trailer park. or their waiting for someone to give them the glory they feel they deserve. maybe for power over other clicks of the 'upperclass hoes in surrounding suburbs. to make the cut in the myspace music video, maybe for grandma. I dont know most of the stuff goes over my head anyways, it irritates me though

bury me

my middle finger bone is too messed up to hold my wrist, and the twist is moving up. I'm leaving a strong splint on for the night, I don't want to wake up with a stiff elbow. Ive been staring at my hand for the last week, just balancing it for hours not sure what to do. Its amazing how destructive I've been with my body, I could of had a better 'line up today but I passed out last night from exhaustion. I let it ruin my days. waking up, work on my hand for 45 mins and then wait for the next day that was pretty much it. that and getting in pissin contests with doctors . But anyways in that time I thought about the future I thought about chasing  money and thats not the way I want to live because you cant buy happiness. Ive heard of successful people that live for money and by the time their 30 they don't know what to do with themselves. that said big money can aid the right people in this world. I thought about my family, and how I want them to be happy. And for the first time I seriously thought about having kids, thats probably something to do with my injury but one day little offsprings bringing joy, I dig it.

my right

3 days I did not move my arm for 2 days I was scared because the previous day my ulna and radius filpped at under the wrist and my arm stared twisting. I felt anguish